So, I went out with a guy for two and a half years whilst I was at Uni (flirted for about a year previously). He was from back home so it was a long distance relationship and I totally fell for him. I cannot even describe how I felt about him or how he made me feel with words because they wont do him justice. I know I'm only twenty-one and I know a lot of people don't feel love is true at this age...but it made all of my other boyfriends seem so....trivial. I have tried (and failed) to be with someone since and still I feel like a part of me is missing...and that it is him.
However, that does not mean that I need him...or that I want him back. You see...the most painful part of the whole scenario is that this guy cheated on me. Not just the one steamy kiss...or the one night of fumbling....but a fully blown affair.
Of course...I didn't know this for a very long time. I found out a couple of months later that he had slept with someone after he had suffered a family tragedy. We broke up for a couple of months but I couldnt be without him and we got back together. People may think Id regret this after the whole story....but I dont. We had some amazing tmes that I wouldnt change for the world.
Anyway, so over a year after that I get an email from the girl saying it had been more than once. He denied it and a month later ...on our two year anniversary (!!) he tells me it was true and it had happened a lot. We broke up a few months after that (I couldnt cope with dealing with it until then due to personal reasons).
So imagine this scenario....I have managed to (after quite some months of hating his guts, crying, being totally untrustworthy and losing my friendship with my best guy friend) be friends with him again and then discover a couple of days ago that he is MOVING IN with his new girlfriend!! MOVING IN!! Even though when I last saw him ALL he did was complain about her.
I don't envy her, I pity him. He hasn't changed. Seeing him bitch about this new girl to my face makes me realise he probably did the same about me - which hurts so much. Knowing he will move in with her...also hurts. I don't want to see him move on. Why does he get to after what he did to me. He may have realised he had done wrong and so not wanted to tell me the truth but I feel our whole relationship was a farce and that I was taken for a complete ride. I hate that I cant move on because I don't trust guys now and don't believe they aren't only after one thing...yet he seems to be able to continue to lie to himself about how happy he is....
