I am finding it very weird that I'm not moving back to Birmingham for University.

I studied primary education for three years and passed with a 2:1, however I have not managed to get a teaching job so far. I have been living back at home with my parents again (one an alcoholic with depression, the other incredibly stressed - they avoid talking to one another also). This in itself is depressing.

However since I came back to Bristol, more has changed. My dog was put down a couple of weeks after I moved home, one of my best friends is avoiding me (after a complicated relationship where he essentially used me) and an ex boyfriend of mine killed himself meaning I went to my first funeral ever (my parents never let me go to family ones).

I'm not sure how to cope with it all and seem to just be keeping my chin up. I tried to get a regular job while I look for a teaching one but failed to (damn recession), I mean I've only ever worked in Tesco during the uni holidays (an experience as people treated me like crap until they realised I went to uni) and even they had nothing for me.

Some of my friends still have to go to uni as they have things to redo, others managed to get jobs elsewhere in the country and are working, and those that aren't live near other friends from uni still so I feel alone and left out. I lived with people my own age for three years and now I'm back with my parents, stripped of freedom and money.